Suicidal depression.. Going to the extent of questioning my own existence :/ any help?

You sound a bit like you have schizophrenia … you're going to have to tell your parents sooner or later because obviously you can't just live feeling like you do. You might as well go to the psychiatrist alone or with your girlfriend, if it doesn't work out, you don't have to go again. Maybe this'll just wear off, you never know…x